But I can’t tell if he’s messing with me or not. Sometimes it feels sincere and other times, it doesn’t. I don’t want to fall deep before surely knowing what I will be facing in the future…. What exactly am I doing?

but I guess I was able to somehow sort out my feelings. All other influences and distractions, they have all settled down…. I don’t want things to end up wrong when I’ve already reached this far without becoming involved in anything so complicated. Please let me stay strong until the right time comes…..