I really enjoy being alone, not depending on someone else. Taking care of myself and my problems, because at the end of the day, I’m all I got. I feel as if a lot of people aren’t worth my time, actually, I just feel like I’m in a different world than others. I feel like most relationships don’t last, which is why I’m not that hungry for one. But there’s a part inside of me that wants a relationship. However, I’d want our relationship to be unique and special. I don’t want to waste my time, effort, and heart.. I mean, does anyone? But.. I also know that everything ends. Life ends, relationships end, etc etc. It happens all of the time. So how do you know if a relationship is going to be how you want it to be? You just don’t know, so you have to take that risk. But when you take a risk, you put your heart at risk. You become vulnerable. You immediately become vulnerable to heartbreak, and trust me, heartbreak is one of the most gruesome pains one can ever experience. So back to being alone.. I really like it. You know what, I actually somewhat like the idea of falling in love.. rather than the whole process of falling in love. It kind of saves you the trouble. The feeling of being loved, though.. is perhaps the most wonderful feeling you could ever experience in life. I don’t know. I feel as if no one should go and try to look for ‘love’, or a relationship. Just let things fall into place. That’s what I think. Love is patient, so you should try and be patient too. But then again, there we go back to that one thought.. the thought that you might just never meet someone that will satisfy your needs. You know, we get so bored easily. When we have too much of something, we as human beings tend to throw away those things, like nothing. I get bored of people easily. I really do. I like interesting people. Weird people. Unique people. People who are out of the ordinary. Life’s too short and dull for boring people. Don’t you think? At the end of the day, all I want is a lot of money, good food, nice clothes, genuine friends, and a faithful lover. That’s all.
I honestly don’t care what you are or what you want to be. Just be honest with me and have good intentions. That’s all I’m asking.
Two weeks to Vegas: As I read the itinerary for the trip, all I see is clubbing, pool party, drinking, casino, *ahem stripclubs* and so on. I forgot that I’m going with party people. Help? do I have any tumblr followers from Vegas that wants to chill?
In some point of my life, I have learned to be very picky with whom I give my energy to. I rather prefer to reserve my time, intensity and spirit exclusively to those who reflect in sincerity. Why? Because like all other beings, we’re here but for a brief, temporary moments. And that’s the thing, I’d rather have a mental state of mind about you and I. About our hopes and goals. About our heart and soul. I understand that there’s a time and place for everything, and nothing will always go as assuredly. But if you look deeply enough, you’ll realize that you’re giving more than what temporary beings can give to each other. That we are giving… life and love to each other. And to me that’s more important enough.
Focus. On. Yourself. Because in this lifetime, you will find many people who don’t know what real happiness is. I don’t blame anybody for not knowing what it is, even I don’t even know what it is.
But if you take a real close look, it all comes down to yourself. I’m a firm believer on a quote, “Lead your life and others will follow”. Live an abundance life. Put others first. Forget about the small stuff.
Because surely and reassuringly, you will see what makes YOU really happy. The question isn’t hard. You may find a temporary fix but I’d for sure want something for the long run. Something that I would want forever and won’t ever regret.
it’s hard caring about and loving someone unconditionally while receiving less than mediocre treatment from them. and they know you care too much to leave or push them away, despite their treatment. i wish i could give people a taste of their own medicine.